Hi, estee1!
I feel for you! I really do! Have had the same feelings... and Iīm having them right now. I feel lost in myself! These feelings and thoughts arenīt easy to deal with!
But the things I know about you tells me that youīre a wonderful person...! Itīs our OCD talking and trying so hard to make us feel lost and worthless... but donīt give up your fight. Youīre gonna get better and both you and I and so many others have to learn to love ourselves. We are as valuable as eveyone else! Itīs so hard to see that- I know!
Youīre a good person with your heart in the right place! Take care of yourself as good as you can! Please, write again whenever you feel like...!
Hugs
Ninni