we are struggling a bit at the moment my mothers anniversary is coming up on the 30th will be 9 years since sshe died of breast c*ncer the body was 16 when sshe died she had been sick since the body was 4 her anniversary always brings up aalot of stuff for us to do wwith our ab*se I dont really know what I hope saying this will help I guess it helps to share in some ways other ways I feel selfish writing it.. maybe ssomeone has some thoughts on gettig through itt I dont know but there it iss..