i cant supress it anymore. but i cant tell my therapist. i dont want to be put in the hospital. but i dont want o lie to my therapist. he had surgery this week and will also be out next week. we have been having check in phone calls. he is gonna call tomorrow. im gonna have to avoid his call.i dont know why im still here. i wish i could change my thin king. my thoughts arent good at all.i dont know what to do.