((((((((( Jacqueline )))))))

Just this week I was finding out for myself the difference between wanting to contact my T and NEEDING to contact T. As you can see from my post, this lesson has been very difficult.

Reading your words, I sense that you know you have a true NEED to get help from a T. I sense that you may have punished yourself internally for any need you had... kinda like what I do with being upset inside because I can't fix my own stuff. IDK. Maybe I am projecting too much. But I say that you should go with what you feel inside your soul. You do know the difference in a want and a need. If you need to see T, please do it.