What I'm about to post about is something I am taking a chance on being very embarrassed about, possibly having the post removed because it does't belong here or something like that. If it is in the wrong place I'm sorry.

I've had dissociative episodes over the years, what I need thoughts on though is this:

I have different "people" who live in my head. I know that sounds crazy but please bear with me. This is why I am asking for your thoughts.

At any given time there can be a conversation going on in my head between these other personalities. Sometimes one will win out and sometimes another will win out.

They never tell me to hurt anyone, they don't give me religious experiences and I very rarely zone out when they are talking.

I really would like to know if these people are alter egos. As I said in another thread, I may be talking to one of these other people and there will be a discussion on one wanting to go out and the other saying "No Way!"; the "no way" always wins.

At times I feel very calm and in order, my thinking is organised and I am able to articulate what I am wanting to express or say. At other times I feel like a frightened 3 yr old wanting to be held or a teen with a wicked sense of humour that few people understand. I know there is an intelligent person somewhere in the mix who writes and says things that either mystify me or make so much sense I wonder where it came from.

Then there is a not too nice person who says what she thinks regardless of who it hurts emotionally (not physically); to her the truth is all that matters no matter how harsh it seems. I really don't like that personality and she doesn't come out too often thankfully, but she is there.

Is it possible for alters to fight for control over ones conscious mind and are these pepople alters or am I on the wrong track altogether?

Please be kind to me because this has taken a lot of courage for me to post. As I said I have had episodes in the past, but this is almost constant and there is never ever any indication of harm to anyone, myself included. At times I shake my head at what is being said, others I laugh, others I cry.

Do I need help for this and how is it controlled?

Thanks so much in advance to anyone who can help me,

Rhiannon