((((((((Calista, Raven))))))))

You helped me today a lot. I was feeling stupid and embarrassed and thinking that people would look at my post and say "oh it's her shes crazy ignore her". You didn't ignore me and you made me feel comfortable enough to if not admit there is an issue, then at least to look at what is happening with me and how to handle it if it is real. You deserve hugs and love and friendship and support, and just as you freely gave it to me I give it to you.

My family fell apart when my dad died and I had to walk away from my family and their toxic ways recently because they were making me toxic too. I didn't want that so I told them off really badly and will never speak to them again. It hurts at times, but I also think that I am addicted to being hurt because I kept going back for it again and again...anything so that they would accept me as one of them...but looking at them from where I am now, they are not nice people to want to be like.

Husband is frustrated and scared sometimes; he likes to help but doesn't feel that he can do enough to make things better so he feels inadequate, that makes him annoyed. Just as you are afraid and hurt so is husband because he tries like you do..

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