I have been addicted to the internet - forums, myspace, live journal and recently Facebook since 2006-7.

I have been on and off the addiction. I had days and weeks and moths REFUSING to go on the internet at all . I had weeks when i forbidden myself to go to Facebook. Then got back to it.

Now.. my dependency is less bad...but there is a person there....that i....
well - and every time i am near the computer i check if he`s online on Facebook and Skype. We have been on and off and i worked hard on myself to overcome and get balance with myself and my dependency on him. There were also days when he would come to my journal to comment as well, and we would develop and conversation of 16 comments in hough and hour. or a week when he called me every day asking how i am feeling, talking deep, on facebook msg and chat too and singing forums... etc.

I go to Facebook mainly to see if he`s online or posted something..how he is doing...if there are new pics of him
There are times we talk and there are also breaks. And during some of the breaks i miss him a lot sometimes. and get anxious of losing him - despite the fact that he treats me nicely and gives me compassion and i do to him... i have borderline disorder.

So i feel i am *sick* of FB many times. I am tired of the status updates and the friends and the news and everything. i feel like yuck damn it all the news feed i don`t really care a lot about anything there. Its cool to catch up with friends etc but sometimes i wish i did not go there as much despite the fact that its fun...sometimes it is not fun already and i get angry with all the nonsense there but i still feel anxious if i don`t go because of him