Yea.but Im not sure if its paranoia or what it is considered for me. I think all the time of things I should or want to tell my therapist but then I don't. Instead I turn to my friends, post on websites and so on. I don't want to end up in the hospitals again and on medications that leave me in a zombee hung over state and some of what I keep from my therapist are things that can and most likely would land me in a mental health unit. Other times my not telling her things is because I am protecting my friends privacy. I generally keep my therapists at a distance on purpose at times because in the past about every two -three years into therapy with someone they end up leaving -getting fired, laid off, vacations which they decide not to come back or they find out I'm DID and refer me to someone else because they can't help or deal with it. To save myself the crashing and hi emotions when this happens I don't depend on my therapist for everything, my friends know 100% of what is going on and my therapists if they are lucky know one fourth of what is going on and those things are the things that my friends and I have already tried to fix but couldn't. I have been called paranoid by many therapists for my doing this and I tell them think what they want, I don't really care what label they call it all that matters is that I don't get raped again in a Mental health unit by being this way, I'm not being some shrinks medicine guinea pig this way, Im not crashing EVERY time the therapists leave me and at the same time I am working on things that need to be done.