No, I dont, I have severe trust issues, I dont trust family and friends, let alone a T so isnt an option to be honest.
You dont have to be sorry, its not your fault, its just how I feel, but i appreciate your words.
And I hate saying this, but I did slip up, I did do it. And now i feel more worthless due to the fact that I posted on here and then still decided to do it anyway. Of all the thigns it made it worse because it calmed me down and made me realise just how much of an immense mess i'm in.
I'm sorry for wasting your time.