((((Martina))))

This is really hurting you Martina I can tell by the way you are writing that you are in pain over the way things are.

You know it isn't your fault that you have mental illness and you should really stop punishing yourself so harshly. You need support not harsh treatment.

If he didn't love you Martina he would not have stayed through all that has happened. And he may well be leaving you alone sexually because he has picked up on the fact that you do not enjoy intimate contact; the signs of that dislike are always very clear and any decent man would take a step back to save you from having to go through it.

Only you can decide if you should leave or not, but you should first talk it over with your husband and look at all the things that are important you; your child, how much you love him and he you, finances, coping etc...By all means if you are unhappy then leave but don't do it without open dialogue between you.

Please let me know how you go with this,

Rhiannon