WePow, I just needed to come back to acknowledge to you what I have seen that you have done. You brought up the relevent parts of your past which have contributed to this issue that you are having right now. Very Good Work! Making these connections is so important I think because these past occurrences are what drives our current issues. By diffusing the past occurrences we help ourselves to not have the current issues. By fully understanding our current issues we work through everything so that we are aware and we won't let the issues come back again because we learned about our automatic responses and replace them with healthy functioning.