Hi silenthill. Thanks for the update

Are you looking forward to the end of this? What are your feelings at this time?

She is not "any one". She is just she. A rotten she, but only she. She doesn't represent anyone but herself.

In the world there are all kinds of people, most are kind and good like you.
When this is resolved, I hope you will allow your desire to trust (we all have it) to return and that in time you can get some help with that. This has been a painful and long battle for you.