really really confused about this diagnosis.

think its actually causing more distress and my identity which was fragile anyway is all over the place. darent speak to anyone in case i am saying something wrong.

how do i just go outside never mind talk to someone?

and yes denial is kicking in, they must be wrong, i am ok, its what other people have done to me, lots and lots, cant relax, thinking of self harming all the time.