Trippin2.0 you are not insignificant and I agree with Shatki this is the illness lying to you. I am sorry about your loss of your dad and brother. You are VERY important to your daughter.

I don't know if you have a therapist you can speak to about this, but you may want to try that. It's important for all of us to have a support network (diagnosed with bipolar or not). Ways I can suggest to build up that network of friends is volunteering, join a group activity that you enjoy, a local bipolar support group, church. I'm sure others have ideas too. I hope you start feeling better.