ACQPL - I am not that other person. I am not sure who I am actually! I am just learning myself how to move forward in a healthy way. It is not easy. My unconditional support just comes from my very simple heart. It is a heart that tries very hard to not cause anyone else any harm. I miss tons of posts and can't reply much at times due to my own issues. But it doesn't mean I don't care.

And you don't owe anyone an apology for your actions to yourself... except you.
You are the one who goes to sleep inside your own skin.
It is really hard to learn that we are ultimately in charge of loving ourselves and taking care of who we are as a person.

Not too long ago I had an SUI attempt. I remember at the time being worried that my T would think he failed. I didn't do it (obviously) and I did end up talking with my T about it. He told me it would have hurt his heart to have lost me - because he cares deeply about me. But he also would not have blamed himself because he was doing the best he could do with me. I also told him that I knew he would not have been to blame because I was fighting my own demons and had my issues. It was not about anyone else, it was about ME and MY pain.

You have your own dance of life. You have a right to take your steps as slowly or quickly as you need or want to take them.