Hi, I am so despondent and scared. I am homeless and down to my last dime. I have 5 cigarettes left, I know it's a bad habit and I wish to quit, but in my current situation the stress is so overwhelming I need some sort of crutch. I have less than a quarter tank of gas in my car. I do need to find a job, but please understand that in my current mental condition, I cannot concentrate nor function in a capacity that is required to perform any type of labor on a consistent basis until I get stabilized with my meds. I am in such a deep and dark place right now. I want nothing more than to be able to work. I am currently staying in a shelter so at least for now I have a roof over my head. I helped out about a week ago on a couple of jobs, nothing real hard, with a guy who also is staying at this shelter. We painted the inside of a garage and stained a deck. He owed me $76.00 for the hrs I worked. To date, he's only paid me $30, and gee, what a surprise, he moved out of the shelter and stiffed me on the balance. I tried calling him, leaving voice messages, but he's not responding to my calls. I am so depressed, I just don't know what's up or down, my Bi Polar has engulfed me and the meds just aren't working. Thank you for letting me vent, good health to all and best wishes.