Rainbow, I think it takes a great amount of trust in T to be able to honestly share those thoughts and emotions. It is very difficult to open up to another person and still have that one part of who we are shut down. It is really not natural. But it is what allows therapy to happen. Your wires are working the way nature designed them to work! :-)

Be honest with yourself and T about ALL the emotions. Your T is not going to jump the rail and abuse you. Your T will work with you respectfully through all these emotions. I sense if you keep that honesty going, that your relationship with T will continue to become VERY strong.