My son is 16 now and I can remember feeling the overload when he was a baby. Trying to do everything while denying my own needs. Reaching a boiling point and imagining harming my son when the frustration got too intense.

If I were to be given a do over some of the things I would change would be to do less house work and play with my son more. I would nap when he napped and I would have me dates once a week. Even if just for a couple of hours of private indulgence I think my son and my husband would have benefited as much as I would. I would also insist on a date with my husband once a week too. Time for just us to talk and keep our relationship alive.

Like everything in life it is always about balance. Balance brings harmony but it doesn't happen by itself. We have to make it happen. We are not machines we are emotional beings who need emotional nuturing.

Please put yourself on the list of people you take care of. You are not alone in your frustration. You can find the balance and feel a lot better about everything as the reward. Take good care.