I am so sorry that you are feeling so bad right now ! Like already said, I wish we could be there for you in real life, but since we can't, I hope it helps some to know that we care and would be there if we could.

I can remember - many many years ago - thinking "I cant wait til I am grown" - but wow - its hard being grown! I am sorry those around you cannot "hear" that you are not ok.

Sometimes my brain doesnt remember things right - but arent you the one who started a thread on Scrapbooking awhile back? Being a Scrap-a-holic myself, I can use that wonderful hobby as a distraction when things around me are going haywire. IF you are the scrapbooker - does that help you too? While my computer was fried and new one being shipped - I got some really great pages made ! It amazes me when I get really into working on it how time flies.

I hope things are better for you soon, or that you can reach out to someone in real life.