Hey Guys, thanks for helping me through last night.
Don't really feel better this morning, but then again, I don't really feel anything except wanting to run as fast and far as possible...which I can't do, b/c where would I go? and what about my daughter? So yeah, I'm still here, and I still don't know why...

I'm in such a foul mood, been cussing and biatching the entire morning. my poor colleagues are sO tired of me already. I don't even remember why I bothered to get out of bed.

I just want to go home, but think that maybe if I stay here my entire shift, and see bf at 6pm that I'd feel a bit better...but what if I don't? and I stay here the entire day feeling crap, only to have him make me feel MORE crap, and then go home crappier than crap????
Ugh I don't know!!!! I just don't want this, any of it! I'm surrounded by people who say they love and care for me, yet NOBODY understands me, or takes this pain seriously. I wanna SCREAM