I wasn't talking about the feelings. And I didn't say they weren't real. For me, I don't believe I can fix what has happened back then. There was just way too much. I want to focus more on the now and trying to learn to enjoy my life and my family now. I know many people feel differently and I think that is fine and wonderful. But for me it would be a total waste of time to try to explore that part of my life. I think if you do and it helps then more power to you and I don't think it's bad at all.