I've got some benzos left over from my last GP visit, when he stated I was clinically depressed and my panic attacks were at their worst...

Haven't used ANY in months, maybe I should rethink that decision...

I think you're right about bf taking me somewhere for a distraction, but I feel so guilty, like I'm using him to escape my own mind. Like this is not his fault, this is NOT what he signed up for, why do I insist on involving him on my bp trips??

Can anyone say F.R.U.S.T.R.A.T.I.O.N?