Everybody said good stuff about getting hold of pdocs and t's and so forth. I just wanted to say. You matter to me. You don't know me very well, but I'm here in your corner. You may not know it. I hope you get the help you need. As depressed as you are, you do need some kind of med and a pdoc. If it gets any worse, maybe a hospital. Not to talk about me, but I get sucidial when I get depressed. It hurts. Do what you can to help yourself, because your child loves you and it would hurt her if you weren't around. It's hard.