Well said owllover! Trippin is on meds, they just seem to be taking a LONG time to kick in.
Don't let yourself get sucked too far into the depression, the racing thoughts... please do something about while you are still in the position to.
Else PM me your bf's cell number and I will ensure he makes these decisions for you!!! Lol
((HUGS)) - you do matter. In your logical self you know this. Keep repeating it to yourself.