I met a guy on the internet over 2 years ago. We met in person after a few months of talking online. He was great, everything I imagined. I instantly became attracted to him, not just the words he typed on the screen. We spent a week together, talking, hanging out and having lots of sex. This is probably the time where I mention he was 46 and I was 20 when this all happened. After that week he left and didn't talk to me again, he ignored my calls, texts, e-mails etc. I was very depressed about all this. Finally, I moved on, and had meaningless sex with other men. Even thought I loved one who ended up being married. Anyway, this 46 year old man who I was/am deeply in love with, contacted me again after 2 years of no contact. We had talked for the past month like several times a day. Well, this past week I heard nothing from him. Oh no not again, I thought. He's just playing with my heart... not cool. Well, I googled his name, because I thought something was up, he got arrested for having sexual contact with a minor.

This doesn't suprise me. The things we were both into didn't surprise me that he would get arrested sooner or later. I guess I'm just angry because he had it all with me, I am into the same sexual things (some might call them perversions) like age play, BDSM, amongst other things etc plus I'm LEGAL. He doesn't have to worry about anything because I'm over 18! I'm safe. He threw away our complete fantasy for this girl. We were gonna have a baby. We could have had it all but no he ruined it.

I forgove him, and I still love him and I always will. He means a lot to me. And if someday he would contact me again, I will return to him. He belongs with me and no one else. He may have some issues but who doesn't? He will always be my baby.

Mariah Carey's "Always Be My Baby" is dedicated to him