Memory can be a tricky thing. Sky has some very good suggestions.

Keep taking really really good care of yourself through this. Time to keep boundaries strong. The combination of the current murder case, your own experiences, and your dream is quite the potent mix.

I don't quite have the words for it yet, but I've experienced something like what you are describing. When it happens, I take it to mean that I am triggered, that I am having a physical reaction to that fact (adrenaline rush, flight or fight sensation, terror, hypervigilance etc.) and that it is time to pay good attention to self-care.

((((((Lexi)))))))