rainbow8 when you say s (assuming-sexual) feelings when you feel connected to your T. Do you mean feelings as in intense love, compassion, joy,passion, etc? Or do you mean...sensations such as the kind associated with arousal? I've found during my excavation process that I had totally turn off my body's sensations partly because ...I guess my childhood abuse left my body a bit messed up. Strange things would happen when in proximity to another person energy field (Didn't really matter if it was a male or female-just a nice human energy field). It also seemed to happen when I was receiving someone intense attention. Although I have never been able to really discuss this issue with my T directly, I have over time been able to untangle the wires a bit and allow myself to be more open to connecting with others without a physical response and therefore without all the mental noise that the physical response then triggered. I'm not sure if this is what you are talking about or not. I've found it REALLY hard to talk about even from the false safety of my computer.