Bipolar usually makes a cyclical cycle, especially with substance abuse. Personally, I think this happens b/c we a.) forget how to cope, or b.) we are presented with a new situation, which we do not know how to cope with.

Cocaine is one of those drugs that many (including myself) have struggled with, and continue to struggle with. It's a very powerful drug, that makes you feel awesome for a short period of time, when you're experiencing the 'good' mania, but then when that's over, you're at the lower gates of hell. not to mention....

(big trigger, I wouldn't read on if you've never experienced cocaine before, pretty graphic)









....waking up with blood on your pillow, from your nose just randomly bleeding in the night. Then there's the whole not sleeping for days, cleaning the house @ 3 am, smoking a pack of cigarettes in 2 hours, not eating for days, becoming delusional, mentally breaking down, doing things to get more drugs, killing a crap-load of braincells, etc. That list is why I don't do it anymore. Just due to all the repercussions that come from doing it.