(((((((shebutterfly)))))))
Sending you many hugs. Yes, it's perfectly OK to struggle with getting a new diagnosis. It'll take a bit of time before it seems totally "normal" to you to have a Bipolar diagnosis. And yes, your condition sounds familiar to mine. I am diagnosed as Borderline Personality Disorder, and a mood disorder NOS with bipolar tendencies. Borderline & Bipolar are similar in quite a few ways, so I get where you're coming from.

Just remember that your illness does not define who you are completely. Your illness is just a part of you, and that's perfectly OK.