When I read this what surfaced in my mind was an experience I had in a 4 day craniosacral course I took last winter. I did fine the first 2 days but...the intensity of the 4 day course really stressed my ability to.."stuff the feeling away." At the end of the 3rd day a minor irritation caused me to come temporarily unglued. THIS WAS NOT A PLEASANT EXPERIENCE but WOW did it ultimately yield some major healing thanks to my T who was willing to respond to my emails sent while I was curled up on the hotel bathroom floor nauseous from the stuff that was unearthed that day. I've often thought that with some issues...I could benefit from an intensity or session frequency that would stress my emotional regulation system a bit. With other issues, I think however I need time to reflect and sit with things a bit before returning to them in therapy.

Sunrise...I'm sorry to hear about your Dad's struggles...many (((())))) to you and your family. Maybe your T is worried that time is very critical. Maybe he wants to help you process and connect with your Dad while he is still here and coherent. That way BOTH you and your Dad can prepare for his passing and be at peace when the time comes.