Tegretol is the mood stabiliser.
As per Drugs.com "You may have thoughts about suicide while taking Tegretol. Your doctor will need to check you at regular visits. Do not miss any scheduled appointments. Call your doctor at once if you have any new or worsening symptoms such as: mood or behavior changes, depression, anxiety, or if you feel agitated, hostile, restless, hyperactive (mentally or physically), or have thoughts about suicide or hurting yourself."

Your dosage seems to be a decent maintenance dose.

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Lorien is an antidepressant
20mg also seems correct, but can go all the way up to 80mg.
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All things indicate that you need to ask for help - PLEASE.
I can only write and offer advice; I can offer you emotional support. But I cannot book you into a hospital or change your meds. This is where you need to be responsible and call your pdoc.