Why is it sometimes Im so emotionally sensitive and other times I just dont give a **** ?
I'm the kind of person with a very open mind I guess thats from things i've done in my past and when I didnt know I was bp!! If ya know what I mean !
Anywho Im startiong to look back at the things I have done over the years before I was diagnosed and Im realizing that Ive not been a good person ! Ive been married 3 times and had other relationships too that I probably sabotaged and didnt even know it at the time.
But my question is : Im still trying to learn about bpd 2 and I was dignosed about 4-5 years ago but now I have a computer and Im finding out alot about bp now and myself !
Why am I so sensitive and other times I dont give a ****?
Why am I ashamed of me? I didnt know I wasnt normal
I have been sad lately realizing what kind of person I am , what a bad mom I was , what a bad wife I was and now look at me Im single and alone I think Im scared of this bp inside of me !
Why is it that my friends can hurt my feelings and not understand im going to be depressed for a while now thanks alot and then I turn around and say things to them thats hurtful to them cuz they tell me about but I just dont give a **** ?
I just dont understand any of this !!! please help me and teach me about bpd !!!