When I'm depressed I get emotional.
When I'm hypomanic, I become selfish and don't give a $hit.
Guess that's the short version of me.
We've all made mistakes in our lives, and having unmedicated BP only makes it worse. Once we get dx'd and medicated, we have a fighting chance of being able to be that person everyone strives to be, the hero and role-model.
Don't be hard on yourself - we always have an uphill battle and as long as we know we are giving it our best shot - that's good enough for me (Sorry for everyone else; they can walk a day in my shoes if they have a problem with me!)
***Note*** This is the hypomanic, I'm great, I'm better than everyone else, ME, talking.***