I'm angry. And willful. I don't want to call her back. I don't want to see her again. I'm so, so tired of her excuses about not returning phone calls. I am angry and under the anger is hurt, of course. I want to never call her, never go back, never speak to her again and see if she even notices.

^ that's just how I feel right now. I'm not saying I don't know better. I'm not saying I can't make better decisions despite how I feel. That is just how I feel in this moment. Who is she to get me to trust her, to coax my story out of me, and then fall down and drop it all over the place?