(((zoo)))
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I told her I know she must get frustrated at having to tell me the same things, over and over. Keep breathing. Open your eyes. Put your hands down. Stay here. Stay here.
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I realized one day after a T session that I was *really* afraid of how T felt about me after sharing some ugly stories. But, when I went back to the session in my mind, T was the same caring T he had always been.
The disconnect between what I experienced with T and in my mind got me thinking and I realized that I was ashamed of myself. I was frustrated with myself. All of the negative feelings I was assigning to T were actually about how I was feeling.
It helped me a lot to have this realization...because it allowed me to briefly step outside of the feeling and see where it was coming from. No amount of T telling me he wasn't frustrated was going to help me...because T wasn't the one who was frustrated...I was.
IDK if this helps or not, but I offer it up as a possibility.
Hang in there, zoo. One breathe at a time. I'm really sorry T didn't call you back.
