Thanks for the fantastic insights everyone (especially Rhiannonsmoon and onemoreplease). I can understand your points of view and I really appreciate you taking the time to provide your opinions of my issues. I really believe that you can love somebody right from the start (and it doesn't really matter how long you've been together) because love is a strong feeling shared between two Individuals where as you can't see yourself without that person and when you're in love you are willing to sacrifice and compromise all you can to be with them. Deep down in my heart, I am willing to sacrifice and compromise for this Man and I can't imagine a world without him in it. I see a good bit of him and yet I never tire of it. I have been seeing him almost everyday during our 2 months together. We probably only skip 1-2 days a week due to other things going on each week (such as I have class on Tuesdays so we usually don't see each other then). He truly is fantastic, but he's human so he has typical faults. Everyone does have faults and those are little things I will have to learn to cope with. They aren't major and I am sure I can learn to cope with it, but like everyone does, I get annoyed sometimes with a person I spend a lot of time with. I have had many fights with my Mom before, yet I know I love her.

We've had one fight in 2 months really and I don't think that is bad at all. I have to also mention that during the fight I was already feeling angry and aggitated cuz I wasn't having a good day so some of that may have been taken out on him. The thing is when I am feeling upset in any way, I usually think about negative past events. I have a difficult time letting go of the past especially when I'm angry or depressed. I tend to bunch a lot of negative past events together and it all adds up and makes things seem a lot worse than they actually are. I can get downright confused and not think clearly when I am in a depressed state of mind. I hate it! Really, I have just recently started feeling depressed again and I think I attribute a lot of it to stress that's brought on from my job and school. The main cause for my depression is not how he treats me at all and I end up thinking/worrying about the future waaayy too much (especially considering that we've only been together 2 months). These past 2 months have been the best I have ever felt. He ended up calling me as soon as he got home from work last night and I explained my feelings to him and cried a bit and he told me he understands cuz he's been really depressed before as well. He ended up coming over last night and when he came over, I felt so much better. I began to think clearly again and I felt like I could take comfort that things are really going to be okay between us. I don't believe I have as much of a desire to push him away as my past bfs. My past bfs gave me more of a reason to because they didn't treat me as good. I can see now that if I wanted him to watch a movie with me then I should have just asked nicely and then offered to watch something he wants to watch with him. I don't want to have all the power in this relationship, even though it may seem that way and I probably wanted to in past relationships. I honestly feel like I want us both to be happy and I want to consider his thoughts and feelings as well. Just like most men, the thing he needs to do is open up to me a little more, but I tell him when I feel he isn't opening up enough and then he does share things with me so I can tell he's making an honest effort.

onemoreplease, I can totally relate to you on both those theories. I think you could definitely be right that I connect love with codependency and I dislike going through breakups. I don't really think I desire to push him away cuz he's interrupting with other things in my life. I know I feel so strongly that all I really look forward to anymore is spending time with him. I loathe time apart from him and I don't want a lot of it. Even if I plan on just laying around doing nothing (like last night), I prefer to do that with him. I am already thinking about moving in with him, but I want to be careful not to make that jump too quickly cuz i did that with my last ex and things did not go well there. At the same time, I recognize that this is a very different and much stronger relationship than my last one though so I don't really wanna compare it with past ones. This really feels different to me and I truly believe he's the one that I want to be with forever (if it's even possible to stay with someone forever). I know it seems crazy to some people, but I know people who have moved faster and moved in only after knowing each other like 3 weeks (they are still together and doing well 2 years later btw) and I believe it can work out if we commit to each other early on. I think you can look to others for advice and opinions, but you are the best judge of your own relationship.

I may be passive aggressive when I am depressed, but that doesn't mean I am always that way. When I go through periods of clear thinking, then I love to give to others and It isn't all about me. I basically become a different person and it's really hard to be around me when I get depressed. That is what depression does.