I'm not sure if it is just me feeling "normal" or slightly hypomanic (I HOPE it is the former and not the latter), but today I have been super productive, feeling like my old self, just feeling normal and with normal energy....but maybe slightly too good? Or maybe I just don't remember feeling good in a way that is not illness-related in so long, but last night I took my first Risperidone (1 mg). I've learned not to burst out in song and flowers every time a med makes me feel great right away since it's usually a fluke...or maybe Murphy's Law is just particularly focused on me. I can always feel the effects of meds right away--I've never had that "it may take up to 6-8 weeks or more before you will feel the effect or know if it works." Anyway, I sure did sleep well last night. Now I know why the bottle said take at bedtime.

I've been SO productive today. That makes me worry it's hypomania, but I also remember before bipolar I was generally very productive every day, so we'll see. One day of any med is too early to tell of course.

I worry a bit though because I also take flexeril (muscle relaxer for severe back/neck/shoulder pain) and klonopin for anxiety and panic attacks. They're all sedatives (and also make my immediate short term memory foggy when I take them at night), so even though I have a strictly timed med schedule I stick to (I set my cell phone alarm to go off 6 times a day, between meds and supps like multi-vitamins and omega 3s) I've started writing down any flexeril or klonopin I take each day (since they are not normal scheduled meds and just taken as needed) after 5 pm. I tend to go to sleep around 11, so I figure 6 hours between them would avoid interactions. They were all ok'd by my doctor, of course, but Flexeril is powerful stuff and so is Risperidone and I'd not want to take them together--too much sedative, especially with my weird heart rate issues lately. It scares me. Less so with Klonopin and Risperidone, but still...better safe than sorry.

Anyway, I'll end this little ramble right here.