I am not bipolar. I am however gifted (in terms of IQ) and very creative with very high problem solving skills.
I feel what you describe depending on the company I am with. I certainly do not feel I am more clever than everybody. I am very clever but I believe everyone on this planet can teach everyone something. So humility is a virtue that allows you to be open and accept while arrogance and vanity will only restrict your view and wellbeing. I am not meaning to sound condocending. Its just that one thing you said really stood out to me:
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It's kind of like the fight or flight response. I am always stuck in fight mode.
This all really sucks for a lot of reasons. Most people think I am a ***** because I never give anyone any credit. I always shoot people down before they have a chance to try anything at all.
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I think this is meaningful because you admit that this response comes from an unhealthy place. something like a defence mechanism or a misjudgement of a situation.
There is nothing wrong in being very intelligent - and sometimes getting frustrated that others do not quite follow (it happens to a lot of people) but I think the ADHD plays a role in your lack of patience. And it may restrict YOU from seeing the whole picture and therefore make YOU in a disadvantage.
I hope this makes sense...