I do have ocd but lately I have been feeling hopeless in my recovery because my kids are 2 and 6 and I am terrified of aging and dying and so worried that something will happen to them and others I love and keep not wanting them to get older

I don't want to get older because I keep feeling how I will miss this time in the past and I will be miserable when I am older

these things go through my mind constantly and I cannot shut them off

I am wasting my time with them now because my mind is preoccupied with missing when they were younger and dreading when they get older

and sooo many other thoughts constantly spinning around in my mind