... I also wanted to know that she was touched by what i said, yes, that she felt some connection too in the therapy relationship, that it wasn't all sterileness and whitewash. I needed to know that i wasn't the only one with an emotional investment in the relationship, that it meant something to her too. But when i got her terse, clinical reply, it indicated to me that she hadn't been moved at all. It was simply another email in her box that was an interruption in her day, like an item on a "to do" list. It make me feel very shamed and small, and very angry at myself for having come to think that the relationship was any more meaningful than just an hour-long collaborative endeavor. My feelings are hurt now, and i'm afraid to "put myself out there" ever again by expressing any kind of attachment feelings toward her. The thing is, she's said she's sorry now, and i should be able to let it go. But the hurt is still there and i can't get rid of it. i guess it has reminded me of other times in my life when i've really risked my neck and swallowed my pride to openly tell somebody how much i care about them and have been used, taken advantage of, or simply flung aside. I know t wasn't trying to do that. But that's how it felt and still feels to the little girl part of me inside. Like she doesn't want my attachment feelings, or to have any attachment with me. And then there's the little voice inside saying, "See? I told you not to get attached. I told you that you would just get hurt again. You're just a time slot in her day, a "3 O'clock," not even a person. Once you leave her office, she doesn't want anything to do with you. Your messages are just a nuisance, like you are.".....