(((((((((peaches))))))))))

i don't think you said the wrong thing at all. you are really brave to say all that to T. i wish i knew what the answer is for you as i hear so much pain in your heart. maybe there is a place in between totally opening up to people and getting hurt and totally closing yourself off.

i totally understand your not wanting to cry in front of T but i wondered if you were able to cry about this on your own. have you been able to get the emotions out at all? it might help if you haven't.