hello and welcome to psych central

id like to approach this form a different angle if i may - and this is just my way of thinking ok ... first i would try to figure out why you want to get this attention.. im wondering if either tyou were sick as a child and saw the attention you got or had a sibling get sick or be long term sick maybe? and maybe craved the attention you missed out on from your parents while they were ill? any way thats what id do first - try and find the source - then once i knew that id try and find a way to get good attention - which i thin you will be doing by trying to help others - but maybe there are opther ways to satsfy the need ... just throwing things out there for you to think about .....

I know a month is an eternity to wait for an appointment - but it will go by fasty if you keep busy wiht things - the volunteer thing sounded like a good idea..... in the meantime is there a friend you can talk to RL ? somtimes just hearing these things out loud helps us identify what the source is and the direction we need to take - somtimes not.....

Depression is a terrible thing when it gets you (been there) and i can fully understand you not wanting to go back there again - are you on any meds? anti-depressants? you sound really frustrated and anxious .. i could be wrong .. keep posting here - there are a lot of wise andhelpful people at Psych Central and even if sometimes all you need is a hug - there is someone here who will help out.

please let us know how you go and keep in touch ok

P7