Lauru, I understand your feelings. Please don't feel bad about this thread -- I don't think Denise was talking to you -- I think she was talking about herself and her own issues. It sounds like she misses her T too, only her T isn't coming back. I don't think she meant to be harsh -- I think she was expressing her own pain.

I know you have to wait until August 12.. I myself have to wait until August 6.. what an eternity. I'm glad you have pdoc, glad you have group, but in the in-between times, it is hard to forget the loneliness, isn't it.

I don't know how to fix it. There's probably no way to really change our feelings for good anyway by just focusing on them. Maybe the best way is just to remember T, in the back of our minds, and keep breathing, and try to think of what we'd like to tell T about what we did in her absence. I'm sorry it's hard. Do you have friends you can lean on right now? A friend you can call and say, "Hey, let's watch a movie together and talk" or something?

Sitting with you,

Jexa