Rambow I get this label too. I think sometimes it just the sense of connection-intimacy that can trigger a response. For me my biggest issue was the fear the noise in my head created when the adrenaline was released and my heart rate quickened and it felt like all the nerves throughout my body were firing. This sensation was linked a long long time ago to sexual experiences that were kind of a mixed bad if you know what I mean. Also, for me since as a child I was somewhat fearless...simple violence or standing strong in the midst of chaos and feeling the rush of power was very intoxicating. So now as an adult ANY stimui that elicits a general arsoual (adrenaline rush) immediately brings these memories forward. The pause or space that I've been able to create lately seems to give me a moment to tell myself..."this situation is different." and then CHOOSE what response is best for me at THIS moment in time.

This has been a really hard thing to work on without really talking directly about it with my T. I remember once last summer I had a really stressful T session, memories were surfacing my T was pushing me to verbalize but my voice just couldn't. I remember I left that session where I was able to contain my response but kind of exploded afterwards on the golf course. It was all the cells of my body were exploding with energy. I played an awful round of golf but I was literally crushing the ball and came very close to punching one of the other players..not because I was angry but because..IDK she was near me and I needed to expend my excessive energy. Lol...luckily I directed it at the poor golf ball instead.

I hope you can have a good chat with your T. It would provably make managing things a bit easier. I will say now that I haven't had this problem lately so I must be not as affected by the stress of trying to share my thoughts in therapy.