I got my referral to have a colonscope today. I really don't want to go, but I know I have to have it. Just very scared. Scared that they'll find something. And scared of the test it's self. They are going to have to knock me completely out. Just the thought of the test is extremely triggering for me. Bad thing is that I'm also scared of being put under. But I know I have to be knocked out for this. Can't be awake any for this test. I have to call monday to set up an appointment to meet the doctor, then have the test. I'm going to go and bury my head in the sand now. <<< Look quick sand

Monty