I had a less than productive session with my t today. I am so depressed right now that I've kind of shut down. Try as he might, getting me to think and talk just wasn't happenning today. He was definitely frustrated. I know he's concerned about me right now. He recommended that as I'm as shut down as I am, I should probably go into the hospital. If I don't now, he predicts I'll be there in a week unless something turns around for me pretty quickly. I'm not going though as I don't feel like I can leave my boys again (I just returned after being gone for 3 weeks). My husband doesn't handle separation well. That just pisses my t off actually because he sees me living my life for my husband instead of for myself. Yeah, lots of frustration today.

I'm not usually shut down during sessions, but I am having trouble accessing my thoughts and feelings because of the depression. I really hate depression.