I was thinking this morning about what my t told me yesterday and am kind of questioning something.

Recently, my h told me that my t is probably getting ready to retire, and that the reason she didn't respond to my email regarding my attachment to her was because she was trying to push me away to get me to stand on my own two feet in preparation for her going away.

So 2 weeks ago, I asked her if this is the reason. She said "No, if i were getting ready to retire, i would be drawing you closer, not pushing you away, because i don't want the experience to feel like another bad abandonment for you."

Yet. . .yesterday she revealed that she has a side to her that is kind of dismissive/uneasy when it comes to being emotionally demonstrative (can't think of the right term for it). As in, she didn't know how to respond to my email message telling her how attached I feel.

Is there a contradiction here? Do you think maybe she thinks i need the attachment and wants to provide that for me. . .but that on a personal level, she is not really all that comfortable with it?

I saw a pic once of her with her kids, and noticed that while they all have their arms around each other, she is standing with her arms in front of her. Just a coincidence? Or maybe pointing to her not being a touchy-feely person??

just a thought.