Evening,

There are NO ACCIDENTS in God's world. You are supposed to be here. And we are all glad you are here. Your suffering will end. Mine did. I was exactly where you are. I do not hear voices, i.e. I am not schizophrenic nor do I hallucinate. But when I was freaking out years ago and thinking of really, really bad things to do, a tiny, tiny voice kept tellling me to hold on, life was not meant to be this way, full of this suffering, and things would get better. Just hold on one more day. For the life of me, I don't know why I chose to believe that little voice. But I did and it came true. And it will for you, too.

I'm no fortuneteller or anything. But things will get better. You are cared about here on PC more than you know. You will be ok. Just hang on.