I am trying to figure out how to control my mania with depression and my high’s. I take Lamictal, Risparedone, and Ritalin. I have been off my medication for about 1 month and started my Lamictal the July 2, 2010. I requested to my doctor to be taken of Risparedone so no longer am I taking that medication.

A couple weeks ago, I was at my mother’s house with my Fiancé and his family. I was triggered by him on that Friday. By the time his family came up I was already having mood swings. My mother started triggering me and than asked for help from his family. I ended up being restrained by his sister and was pretty violent with my boyfriend.

As of Monday, I wrote an apology letter to his sister but I am still having trouble dealing with the way I had acted. I am unable to deal with any of my thoughts or feeling. I cannot sleep and if I do it’s for 2-3 hours a night.

I know it’s to late to take back my action and I realize this, but I just keep playing that night over and over in my head.

The reason for my post is does anyone have an explanation for the violence and the quick temper. Also, does anyone go through the feeling of my obsessive thoughts?

I really could use advice, thank you.
Pam