If you are ODing on your meds it's probably that you aren't functional & not a good thing for your kids to have going on around them. You don't want them thinking that OD'ing is a positive coping skill.

I would think that for your good & your families good, that you would go to the hospital. I have been exactly where you are many times back in the 90's only my OD"s usually landed me in the hospital with no choice. Your ODing is a cry for help if not more......definitely a sign that you need a change, if nothing more than breaking the action of ODing....only the hospital can offer that......definitely a good idea the way I see your situation.